An Award! Oh My!!

Imagine my surprise this afternoon when I was having a quick read at Cassie-Ann's this afternoon and found that she had awarded me with this....


I've never had an award before, so thank you Cass for giving it to me! Definitely go and check out Cass's blog if you haven't already, she has the most adorable children and is a pretty Super Mum if you ask me!!

With this award, the idea is to tell everyone 7 things that you wouldn't already know, and then when i've finished, pick 7 other 'Kreativ Blogger's' to receive the award. So here goes...

1. I have an irrational fear of drowning. Honestly I have no idea when it started or why, but the thought of going on a boat gives me cold shivers and makes me want to run to the desert to get away from the water LOL

2. I am obsessive when it comes to pegs and hanging out the washing. If it the piece of clothing requires 2 pegs, they HAVE to be the same colour/style of peg. I do know others who are worse LOL but hey, this is bad enough.

3. I am an only child, and I still resent the fact that I don't have any siblings. Not sure why, heck i'm 30 I should be over it by now, but as I get older it really stands out for me more that i'm it.

4. Even though my family me absolutely EVERYTHING to me and I treasure every moment with them, I also crave alone time. Think this is an only child thing, but I don't cope very well if I don't get at least a little bit of alone time each day.

5. When I was younger I always hated staying over other people's houses. It took me many years to be ok with it. Even to the point of not going on school camps because the thought of being away from home for even 2 nights just made me very anxious.

6. I always wanted to be pregnant or have at least one child by the time I was 25, even to the point where if I had to be a single Mum, I would have (luckily I didn't have to, and I was pregnant with Master L at 25!).

7. When I get cranky I clean. Quite a handy thing really and you can quite often tell if i've been in a bad mood cause the house is clean to within an inch of its life LOL It calms me down quickly and gives me back that sense of achievement that sometimes gets lost around here.

Wow, didn't think i'd get to the end of that. Who would have thougth that 7 things would make me think so hard LOL

The 7 'Kreativ Blogger's' that I nominate are (in no particular order!)....

1. Bec at http://ourcrazycrazyworld.blogspot.com/

2. Sam at http://spirited1au2.blogspot.com/

3. Deb at http://debsvoyage.blogspot.com/

4. Toni at http://serenitycreek.blogspot.com/

5. Jen at http://jenniferann75.blogspot.com/

6. Clare at http://craftycowcreations.blogspot.com/

7. Kwebbel at http://scrapbookinghohenlohe.blogspot.com/

Have fun :) :)

Thinking, thinking, thinking...

So last night, after I wrote that last post, I decided to get an early night. Before I went to sleep I was able to have a bit of internal reflection time and try to work out in my head what it was that I was really worried about with everything.

Obviously I don't want to be feeling the horrible pain like I did with Master P's caesar, but I also do not want a general anesthetic. To me, that is a far me unbearable thought, missing out on the first few hours of my precious baby's life because i'm knocked out.

The other thing that I so desperately missed out on with Master P's birth is the fact that I never got to hold him straight away. Yes, I know he needed to go to the Special Care Nursery (SCN) but he was also able to breath on his own, so he could have been on my chest for a few minutes before being whisked away. The only baby that i've had to cuddle straight away is Master H, and I can remember every single moment of that time (even when he pee'd on me LOL).

So this has all lead me onto my next train of thought. If I actually give into the fact ahat it is more than likely I will have a caesar, then there are steps I want put in place to help ease the whole situation. Like asking for the baby to be put straight on my chest. Not wrapped up, but on my chest, with a blanket over the two of us. The only other person to hold would be MrB (obviously unless there is some kind of medical necessity that requires the baby to be checked over, i'm not that selfish to not allow that!). If for some reason I am not allowed to have the baby in recovery with me, then he/she is to stay with MrB at all times. And the other thing that I do want, I want the screen down so that I can actually see the baby being pulled out. Yes, can be horrible for some to even consider that, but that is another part of the caesars that are hard for me to get over mentally (yes, I am a mental case aren't I?!). I watched Master H's head crown and every bit of him slither out (I had a mirror) so why can't I see my other babies come out?

Surely that doesn't sound like too much to ask for is it?

I also realise that yes, i'm 14wks pregnant, I have plenty of time to sort all this stuff out. I also realise that to a lot of people I should just suck it all up and get over it all, give in to the fact that i'm having the surgery and do it the way that its done for everyone else. Is it wrong of me to want something different? Am I a bad person for wanting this to be made more special? If I am not allowed to birth my baby in the way that I want, surely its not a bad thing for me to be wanting these things to happen.

If you got this far, well done. Sorry if I sound like i'm a broken record, but mentally this is a big thing for me.

14 Weeks and the Ob Appointment

I've copied this from a forum I spend time at, sorry for anyone who is reading this twice ;) I figured I typed it all out once, may as well just copy it on over (how slack?? LOL)

Well, what an afternoon yesterday was. Took over an hour to be seen (oh yes, I so love public once again), then get called in by one of the Obs I saw with P. He is nice enough but very hard to understand, so spent a few times asking him to repeat (gosh I hate doing that, I feel so very rude!). Blood pressure was good 110/70, heard Bub's heartbeat (by far the BEST part about the whole afternoon) and all seems to be measuring well. He noticed that I was due for a pap smear, so I got to have one of those lovelies too. Will get the results from that next visit in 5wks time (unless something comes up before hand).

So anyway he never said anything about the caesar, so I did. It is the hospitals policy that they will not allow any trials of any sort for a VBA2C. They are a Level 2 hospital and have no ICU, only a High Dependency Unit and because of that they cannot take the risk. According to the Dr after the first caesar you have a 1 in 200 risk of rupture, well it goes to 1 in 100 in subsequent caesars.

So I kept on, being positive and said well what if I'm adamant about not having another one, what happens then. Well apparently after my morphology scan they will 'review my case with a consultant' and after that they will decide if they will refer me onto the Mater in the city. It would then be up to the consultants at the Mater to decide if anyone would be willing to take on my case considering how high risk it would be, it is 'highly unlikely' but he couldn't say for sure.

He then went on to ask why so I said that it was because of the last caesar being so traumatic and how I don't want to be put into that position again. He thought I meant after the actual surgery and I said 'ohhh that wasn't the greatest but i'm talking about DURING!' So he flicked back through my notes from Master P's birth (you know, the ones that i've requested months ago and still no word about them) and it states that my spinal did not work properly and that is why they sedated me. I said I know that, I felt pretty much everything they did but waited until I knew my baby was ok before saying anything.

The look on his face at that point was pretty priceless actually. He then went on to say that if I did have to have another caesar that they could do a general and then I would have to worry about any of that. Well sorry buddy, but I want that even less than the actual caesar!! Heck, I have had enough problems bonding with my caesar babies after they have been born without having to deal with missing the first few hours of their birth due to being knocked out.

So needless to say I wasn't in a very good headspace last night. Nothing can be even thought of until I have my 18-20wk scan and then head back to the Dr's clinic on the 1st October.

Oh he did tell us one story. One lady was so set on having a vaginal delivery after her 2 previous caesars that when she went into labour, she stayed at home until the last possible moment and then went in. She did deliver vaginally, and had a bit of a bleed (which he didn't say was a rupture, but just said bleed) but they had no choice but to deliver because she was so far gone.

Ahhh yes, my 'plan B' ;) I have thought about doing that too. Even Mum who was here looking after the kids said 'well what's stopping you from doing that?'

But anyway, not a very positive afternoon - well except for hearing Bub's heartbeat! I shall just hold onto that for now.

13 Weeks Today!

Wow, 13wks today. Some days it feels like its going slowing, and yet these Wednesday's seem to come round awfully fast, signaling a new week. Well pregnancy week anyway LOL

All has been going pretty well. Morning sickness has been so good for the past week, yet today seems to have reared its ugly head again. Oh well, its all good as it makes me feel like there is something still going on. Yes, at this stage before movement its hard to actually feel pregnant, if that makes sense?

Been thinking lots and doing research into my options in regards to labour. I was told by the Ob who delivered Master P that I would have to have a caesarean if I got pregnant again. Well, I really hate it when people tell me how to handle my body, especially when it may not be necessary to HAVE to do it. I've read lots lately of women having VBA2C, (vaginal birth after 2 caesareans) and since i've already had one VBAC i'd really like to try for another. It's not like my body CAN'T give birth, the circumstances surrounding the last caesar was mainly due to the Dr.

I also know that there are many around who might think i'm absolutely crazy to not just 'go with the flow' and give into having the caesar, but after the horrible trauma I was put through with the last one, I really don't want to just lay down and let someone who has no idea about my body make the decisions.

I'm sure next Thursday at my Ob appointment will be an interesting one!

Anyway, I know last week I said i'd post a belly pic, well I didn't end up getting one taken BUT I took one tonight so I shall post it instead!


My pants are certainly starting to notice the difference as my belly grows, wonder if this means i'm going to be huge this time LOL

A Weekend Away

We were lucky this weekend, and headed up to my Aunt's house on the Sunshine Coast. We haven't been up there since Boxing Day last year, and it was so nice to just get away for a couple of days and regroup as a family. Sure, we do spend lots of time together, but daily life usually gets in the way and its not always a 'fun' time. Well we certainly had fun! A couple of trips to the beach (which was a street away from Aunty's house), yummy food, a bit of shopping and then finished off with a trip to Underwater World. The boys had an awesome time, and it was so nice just to be 'us' again. Didn't get to catch up with anyone up there that I know, but the trip really was just for us to be together. Hopefully next time I can catch up with some friends up there, as we are hoping to do it more often.

Here are some pics from our time up there....

King's Beach, Caloundra

MrB - one of nicest photos of him in a long time. Usually he is pulling faces LOL

MrB, Master P and Master H digging a hole in the sand. Lots of fun!

Master L, my gorgeous big boy loved the beach!

How I love this photo! MrB and Master P on the way down to paddle in the water.

Master L and Master H digging with their new rakes before the wave came in and they ran away

At the waters edge, Master P being watchful of the incoming water.

Master H, he had such an awesome time digging in the sand. Beautiful boy!

In the shark's jaw at Underwater World. Not a great shot, but it was very dark in there and my flash wasn't working how it should have!


At the wharf area near Underwater World, we found this Crocodile who was giving the thumbs up sign, so the boys thought they would too.

12 Weeks Today!!

Woohooooo!! In some books that would mean i'm in now starting the 2nd Trimester, as Mr B ever so kindly pointed it out that really that can't be right cause it didn't make sense to his brain how 12 weeks can be a 3rd of 40wks. I then also said 'yes but Honey, when have gone past 37wks yet?' LOL He relented and said good point, your in the 2nd trimester now.

So what's been happening? Well not much at all! Gosh this first part is the 'boring bit' isn't it? Give me a few weeks further when the movements start happening and that is when I get more excited (ok, I already am, but even MORE excited LOL). The movements make me feel that much more comfortable and tell me that yes, Mrs B, you really ARE pregnant!

Have been a bit ambitious and already bought a couple of things. We needed a new swing since Master P managed to break ours that we have had since Master L was born. It was a great swing, but oh my gosh, the one I scored off Ebay is worlds apart! It rocks, I LOVE it!

We also splurged yesterday. We went shopping to pick up a new bed for Master P (that is another post in itself!) and there was a baby shop nextdoor. So me, being me, just HAD to go in and have a look, and if I went in it meant we all went in LOL Well Mr B found the pram first, I kept walking and looking at another lot that I loved. Anyway, I came back and checked out the one he liked, which was very similar to the one that I liked only the wheel base was a bit thinner so it would be easier to get through doorways/aisles etc. Anyway, wasn't entirely fussed on the price, so we jumped back in the car and drove a few more minutes to another baby shop that we have bought from before and ended up getting it from there, for $30 cheaper. You know me, always love a bargain! Can't wait to give it a test run. Pity the boys were at kindy today otherwise I would have taken them for a walk to try it out.

I'll post some pics later on, need to take them first (oops!). Also since i'm now 12wks, I will start doing my belly shots. I'm starting to notice a bit of a difference with my pants, especially one pair which I won't tell you how i'm keeping them together, but lets just say that the Belly Belt still hasn't been used yet (3 pregnancies, and I still haven't been able to use the damn thing LOL).

Ok, off to go and get my cherubs! Will be back later with some pics ;)

Time to Get Organised!

I've been very slack over the last few weeks. With a combination of morning sickness and tiredness that I always get in early pregnancy, and the wonders of sick kiddies it has been a bit of a slack time for me. Motivation has been thrown out the window, and well lets face it, its REALLY starting to show now!

On the days when we are all feeling good, well we have been going out and trying to get back out in the real world again. Probably not a good idea when the house is looking like a tip! Ok, so its not really that bad, but still, the normal standard that I keep it has dropped lately.

So, where on earth do I find that motivation again to claw my way through it all and recover my house? I am guessing that this question could be one that is asked by MANY people, especially Mumma's.

Tomorrow is a public holiday for us, which means no Kindy tomorrow. So, I'm thinking of ropping the little gentlemen's into gear and us all plowing through some work around here. It's not a huge amount but just lots of little things that haven't been put back where they should be (ie, TOYS!). I did go through the playroom a couple of weeks back in a moment of major frustration and it has been sooooo much better since. But they are starting to slip again when it comes to packing away. You know, just dumping things in any old box. Little People living in the cars box, play food items living with the Little People, 'well, they get hungry Mummy and we can't have them going hungry now can we?' Ok, valid point SweetCheeks, but I really think it might be a bit hard for them to digest.

If I put it down here, it might spur me into action.

My 'TO-DO' List for Monday.....

General pick up of toys, shoes (why the shoe basket had to be emptied into the new baby swing I really have NO idea! And why they needed to be rocked to sleep, well that just makes me wonder even more LOL), etc.

Put more washing on, and fold the start of what will be Mt Foldmore if I don't get onto it now.

Clean the bathrooms/toilets

After all that, it will then be into the kitchen. Ahhh the kitchen, my least favourite place at the moment and not only is that frustrating me, but its getting beyond ridiculous. A few problems with the kitchen right now, whenever I cook something i'm flat out eating for the next 12hrs. For some reason the whole cooking process, smells, sights etc, is REALLY making me sensitive at the moment. That's not a great thing when i'm the only person who cooks in the family! The other is i'm sick of the fusiness that is in our house when it comes to food. 2 out of 3 are pretty good, will eat most things, but oh dear, Master H has sensory issues and food is a big part of that. He doesn't like anything that's in a sauce, and also doesn't cope with food that is mixed together (like savoury mince). The only sauce type of dish he will eat is spaghetti bolognaise. He'd probably eat it every night if he could. I have been able to start hiding vegies in the bolognaise, but it doesn't always work - smart kid, he now knows to really look at the food!!

So it's back to the drawing board with the foods in our house. Time to find some new recipes, ones that are cheap and family friendly, not to mention quick and easy to prepare! If you know of any good sites, PLEASE let me know :) :)

Ok, enough rambling for one night! Off to bed early so that we can get cracking in the morning.

My 'Baby' is now FIVE!

Master L celebrated his 5th birthday yesterday. None of us can still believe just how fast the last 5 years have gone. To think that our little 'Miracle Baby' conceived with the help of a fertility specialist after waiting what seemed like an eternity, is now 5 and the big brother to two little boys, and another baby (which he thinks is a girl!) on the way.

He has lighted our lives so much, and continues to do so every day. Such a funny boy, some of the things he comes out with, definitely shows he has been here before. There is no way he could know as much as he does otherwise LOL

His birthday started at 6:30am, with him coming in and waking me up saying 'Mum, have you forgotten what day it is today, you haven't said Happy Birthday yet!' What he didn't know is, at Midnight, I went in and gave him kisses on his forehead and wished my baby a very happy birthday and also hoped he was having the sweetest dreams before his big day.

He LOVED his presents. Lego, a LeapFrog Tag Reader and 2 books, more Lego (we are very much into that right now, its so cool!) and he favourite out of them all, a new Diego Wii game. The look on his face when he opened the paper was priceless. Then his words were... 'Oh My Gosh, I cannot believe you did this for me, this is amazing! Thank you so much Mum and Dad'. How on earth can you not want to give them the world when you get responses like that?

After breakfast they boys started playing the Lego and having a play with the Tag. He then started playing Diego (and of course, was a pro from the very start LOL) while I go everyone dressed and ready to go out. What he didn't know was we were going out to lunch to Sizzlers. He had been asking if we could go out there for his birthday dinner, but we wanted to do lunch instead as its just way to crazy there at night time. When we drove into the carpark, Nan, Grandad and GiGi where already there (which was good, cause he saw them and didn't actually see where we were LOL). We had to ask him to look around and it finally dawned on him, he was SO excited!

The three cheeky monkey's waiting to be seated at Sizzlers

Lunch was good (well as good as Sizzlers can be) but we had fun and that was the main thing. Back home afterwards for some cake that was lovingly made once again by Nan....




It really was a great day, but most of all, our BIG little man had an awesome day. He says that he definitely feels like a 5yr old now LOL Me, well I don't feel like the Mumma of a 5yr old, to me he is still my wee little baby who grew up way too fast!

Master L - a few days old

6 days old

Love you my Possum Prince!! Always and Forever
xxx

If you don't laugh...

You'll cry right?

That's how the saying goes isn't it? Well, that's what i've been *trying* to do today, laugh instead of cry.

The past 12hours have been fun to say the least around here, well not so much fun, but rather disgusting. Why? Because Master's H & P have a gastro bug! Now normally this wouldn't be all that much of an issue, its poo, we deal. BUT this time, oh my goodness, being pregnant and them having a gastro bug is sooooo not good!

Picture my night last night. Mercy dash back to Kindy to pick up Master L's beloved monkey best friend 'George'. Got stuck in traffic, and because we were so late (and I didn't get to turn the oven on before we left) I picked up take away on the way home. No worries, got home, fed the kidlets their dinner, told Mr B that he could go back out and get ours later (I was too rushed to bother eating yet), no worries at all. Mr B goes out while the kids had a quick shower, so just me in charge of drying/dressing. Once again, no worries because its quite often just me doing this. Last night was Master H's turn to go first getting dried. There in lies the start to the problem. Why oh why did I not do Master P first? Why was it such a problem? Well, Master P decided that farting would be a great thing to do (he finds is absolutely hilarious, and tries with all his might when he is naked to rip one out... how is it that at 20mths he knows to be such a boy already?? LOL). Well, he tried really hard. So hard infact that not only did he fart, but he followed through!

OMG!

OMG, he poo'ed on the carpet!!

OMG, he poo'ed on the carpet and its running down his legs!

First thing I did was put a towel under him quickly, and then *I* bolted to the toilet as it was entirely too much for my morning (pfftt all day!!) sickness sensitive tummy to cope with. So, quickly finished there, ran back, picked Master P up and ran him back to the shower. Got the water going, started cleaning him up (thank the Universe for showers that are on a hose!!!) but once again, all too much for my tummy so I chucked in the sink.

Right now I bet your wishing you never opened this blog right? Well I can assure you, i'm wishing just as much that I had of nappied that bum before ANY of this happened LOL Hindsight hey, gotta love it!

So once I compose myself, and tell my little guy that its all ok (he was looking at me like I was some kind of animal, don't blame him, I don't like watching people chuck either LOL), finish cleaning him up and quickly get him to the change table and even faster put a nappy on him. Ahhh the Weapon of Mass Destruction is contained!! Everyone can breath a sigh of relief, but just a warning, don't breath in too hard, cause it really didn't smell all that great in the room!

Guess who walked in just as i'd finished dressing Master P. Yes, Mr B. Just in time to miss ALL the action. How timely LOL (lucky bugger!)

Needless to say, the rest of the night had many more moments of weak stomachness, but it is so much easier to cope with when its contained in a small area.

Oh and note to self, Master P needs that nappy on ASAP when getting out of the shower! That bum is leathal LOL (cute though all the same ;) ).

A Day of Contemplation

Do you ever have days where you just sit and think about what is going on in your life? What is going in, how it is affecting you? I seem to have had one of those days today. The two big boys were at kindy, so its just been the little man and I. Well, he decided to pull a BIG sleep today, so really most of the time it has just been me.

Yesterday I got heaps done around here, and pretty much overdid it. One of these days I will learn to pace myself a bit better, especially when pregnant (I know, i'm only 10wks, but my body starts going to pieces earlier these days LOL), my back and hips just don't handle it very well at all. So today, i've done a whole lot of nothing *gasp*. Not that i'm feeling particularly guilty for that, sure there was folding that could have been done, but the day isn't over yet LOL.

So, in my day of not doing much while Master P was sleeping, i've been thinking about things. Like why is it when i'm pregnant that I find it hard to keep in contact with people. I think if it wasn't for places like Facebook I probably would shut myself off completely. Then I realised why I am doing this. I am so sensitive to everything at the moment. And I mean EVERYTHING. Noises, smells, sights, people, emotions, you name it and i'm feeling 'prickly'. So maybe this is the subconscious way of dealing with that. Sure it does help, but then it also hinders as well because people wonder why I am shutting them out, when i'm really not doing it intentionally it's just happening. Gosh I do wonder if that makes any sense at all?

There are some people though that are bugging the daylights out of me, and I AM intentionally shutting them out. Some people just should not be allowed to open their mouths (or fingers in teh cases of emails) because they just do not think that what they are saying could be taken wrong (or it just is wrong, so they just shouldn't say it!). Mind you, these people are not ones that I would really classify as friends, so I really have to stop letting them bug me.

Anyway, bit of a nonsense post, but it has taken till my 4th pregnancy to realise just WHY I do this LOL Hey the penny had to drop sometime didn't it? I just think the sensitivity is getting worse with each pregnancy, maybe that's why I have finally realised.

So if I you are one of the people who I am shutting out, i'll be back soon, as this too shall pass. In the meantime, I need to try and not shut off completely (hence re-starting the blog!!).

Oh dear, my nose radar has picked up on something.... I have the nose of a canine right now LOL

What a Neglected Blog!

Once again life got in the way and the first thing to go was my blog. I know, its not like I haven't had time, but I also haven't had the motivation to actually write about anything (mainly cause that would mean having to construct sentences that actually tried to make sense LOL).

But in saying all that, there has been some exciting developments in our little world.


Yes, Baby #4 is on the way! I got these two positive tests quite by surprise, as I have been having nothing but troubles with my cycles, so really didn't expect to actually get these at all! I even had the referral letters to have an ultrasound and other testing done to find out what was going on again. We are very excited, yet also nervous as our family grows once again. This will be the last addition to our family, so i'm trying to make 'first' special as it will also be the 'last', if that makes sense?

Will have to work out how to get one of those cute widget tickers on the side so its easy to see how far along I am.

Anyway, that is all the BIG news for now. Everyone else is doing pretty well. We have had some yucky bugs going through the house lately, horrible flu and coughs that just don't want to fully go away. Bring on the rejuvenating brilliance of Spring. Oh how I am looking forward to Spring this year. There has been a few absolutely gorgeous days, and you can almost smell the changing season coming. Ahhh bring it on!!

This time I WILL be back soon ;)