Oh My Gosh!!!

We found a place that is just down the road from us that does all sorts of special pregnancy ultrasounds. Anyway, I found out that they do a 10-15min gender determination scan and we decided that we would get it done. I've been feeling hmm, not even sure the words, but just not attached the way that I have been in the past with the boys. I don't know if its from the thoughts of birth, the unresolved trauma from Master P's birth or what, but just something that wasn't the same and it has really been getting me down. So we decided to get this scan done before the big morphology scan in the hopes that it will help.

We took Master H with us, which was great! Master L didn't want to come, so he and Master P went to my parent's house. Master H loved it, thought it was very cool to see his little 'H's' (he has been saying there is 3 babies in there, and they are all going to be called H - the same name as his LOL). Funnily enough, when we got in the room, there was 3 screens, so the poor boy thought that meant there was 3 babies!! So much for taking him in the hopes of making him realise there is only one in there LOL

So the lady was talking and asking questions about the boys, and I said to her that I was highly doubtful that it would be a girl, we just don't know how to make those together. She then said, you think? I just looked at her, and she said well... 'its a Girl'. I didn't believe her LOL Told her to look again, and she did, and she said 'no, look see its definitely a girl, there is the 3 lines, and there is nothing else there'. I looked over at MrB, and I said 'honey!!' and he was like 'what, I was showing H so I didn't hear, what?' So we said again that its a girl, and he was like OMG, what, noooo. Really?' LOL His reaction was so cute and funny!!

After that, I cried (yeah I know, big girly wuss aren't I LOL) and the lady checked all different ways to really make sure that she is definitely a she. Then she turned the 4D scan on for a few minutes so we could see the Babe moving around. Unfortunately no pics because that was in the bigger package that we weren't getting (prefer to do that at a later stage of the pregnancy) but the morph scan is in 2 weeks, and we will get a CD of pics then.

I am still in shock. It's a girl!! OMG!! We are going to have a daughter!! My sons are going to have a baby sister! So VERY, VERY excited!! :) :) :) :)

16 Weeks Today!

Wow, these weeks are really flying by! Which is good and bad, once again because this is it, and it will be over all too soon. BUT then we will have our newest little treasure to go nuts over, so its all good ;)

Got to see our little Belly Babe this week due to having a scan on Monday. Have been having quite a lot of pain in my caesar scar, so the Dr sent me for an ultrasound to make sure nothing sinister was happening in there. All appears ok for now, from what the tech could see, but there was parts that weren't showing all too well, so will have to check them out again at the morphology scan on the 30th (3wks today!!). Was great to see the Babe jumping around in there, although the scan itself was rather painful.

Other than that, have been really sick with a bad sinus infection that really knocked me for six. Between me having that, all 3 boys with sinus (got to love the Orange Blossom along the back fence! NOT!) and then Master L deciding that a gastro bug would be fun to get over the weekend, we haven't done much at all. All 3 boys got to go to kindy today, so at least they got out and had some fun with their friends today.

Gosh, what a boring update. Oh well, better than none at all right? LOL Hopefully the next update will be more exciting ;)

16 Weeks Belly Photo

I Have an Addiction

And its BAD! Every opportunity I get right now, I just have to indulge in my addiction. It's getting to the point where even the kids ask me what i'm doing and if i'm going to have to have it again. They just don't understand, they follow their father who thinks my addiction is horrible. Me personally, I just cannot understand how they could not partake in my little pleasure. Although right now i'm actually grateful because that means all the more for me.

So what IS this addiction that has me so taken over at the moment? Well it would be these....


Australian Avocados! Oh my, that soft creamy green goodness.... I think its been the healthiest thing i've craved in a long time LOL Sure, I still LOVE chocolate far too much right now. And juice, ohhhh my goodness I think I drank 1 litre of Apple and Guava juice last night alone. But these green bad boys, oh they taste SO good right now!!

Oh, look at the time ;) It's nearly lunch time, which means, you guessed it, avocado toasted sandwich for me!!

(I know, i'm a worry aren't I LOL)

15wk Belly Pic!

As much as I love being pregnant, I am so excited for this new little belly babe to join us Earthside, so i'm loving that the weeks are going by so fast. Mind you, I know that as soon as he/she is here I will be missing it all so very much again and wish for the time back. Ahh catch 22, right? LOL

Physically all is going really well. Back pains can go away, but figure that there is some major stretching and growing going on to make those happen, so just trying to ignore it as much as possible. Have been feeling a few little flutters and movements, ohhh how I LOVE that part! Just know that right now, i'm the only one to be able to feel it, makes it special. Part of the bonding process between the babe and myself. I love it when MrB and the boys are able to feel things too, but its almost like right now, its my little secret ;)

Anyway, emotionally i'm on a major rollercoaster, that seemed to hit its peak yesterday as I spent most of the day in tears. Have found a great place to help work through it to get to a point where moving forward won't be quite so hard. Will never forget, but hopefully the impact will lessen gradually through time.

So, onto what i'm here for!! Taken tonight, at 15wks :)



Please excuse my puppy pj's LOL It has turned a bit chilly up here again at night time and my flanny pj's are the most comfortable thing I own, pants wise LOL Pity help me when it gets hotter!!

Letting Go

Why do I have such problems with letting go of things? I am really struggling at the moment to put stuff behind me and move forward. Obviously the issue needs to be dealt with but I have no idea how to do that. I'm sure i'm annoying the daylights out of everyone around me because its at the forefront of everything at the moment and I don't know how to stop that.

Maybe i'm not meant to stop it? But at what price? Heck, even my blog is getting filled with this lately. So, if you reading and sick of it all, i'm sorry, but i'm really not sure where else to let it out. Yes, MrB will listen, but he doesn't 'get it'. My Mum will listen too, but also doesn't get it fully either. They are sort of listening but when it comes to the actual point i'm trying to make all they think about is the 'statistics' that the hospital are spouting.

Why can't I be like other women that I have read about. Their body, THEIR decision. No matter what anyone else says, they do it the way THEY want. Why can't I do that? I seem to have to 'make people happy' and that means giving in to their ideals. Is it simply a lack of confidence in myself or is it more than that? I've been doing this all my life, so obviously its just my 'nature' now, but when does it stop, when can it be MY say?

As I keep telling people, yes, I have issues. I don't know how to work through them, i'm stuck in what seems to be a memory rut. I don't want to annoy people with this, but i'm sure I am.

Why can't I do as some people say and just 'get over it'?