Do you ever just sit and wonder? Wonder what life would be like if you were someone else? Or maybe just wonder why people do and say what they do?
Life works in funny ways, and each of those keeps being shown to me lately by the ever wonderful Universe that we live in. Just when you think you know someone, something strange and odd happens and you realise that they really weren't the person you thought after all.
What bugs me even more is, at times when i've had feelings as to them not being quite right I squash them, not trusting what i'm feeling because, well because I thought they were someone different.
In the past week it would seem that i've lost two, so called *friends* and you know, that is a horrible feeling. Why horrible? Because I didn't go with my gutt feeling and trust some of the vibes that they were giving off. No, I squashed them, and in the meantime I almost feel like i've become a pawn in a crazy game of chess! Plus, it wasn't just me who was being played, it was a very good friend too, and that annoys me even more.
BUT, having said all that, it is time to move on. I know i'm the bigger person out of all of the mess that has happened. I also know that I no longer need these toxic, life sucking people in my life.
It's time! It's time to let my vibrations flow high and free. It's time for new journey's to begin. To let creative juices flow. To allow myself to welcome new and exciting people, opportunities and abundances into my life.
Life is GOOD!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I'm Bored
Yes, I know. I'm a mother of 3, have a house to look after, a husband who is still recovering of surgery but I hate to say it. I'M BORED!
My brain is going to mush. It just doesn't get used in the way that it used to, and i'm starting to wonder if i'm every going to use it properly again LOL The big boys are happily playing, the little boy is currently swinging his way into the land of nod, and i'm on here trying to decide what on earth to do with this beautiful day.
I think my biggest problem right now is the lack of adult conversation. Now don't get me wrong, I love being online and talking to my friends on here, but I am craving the act of talking in person. These days I think we all rely on the internet so much for our social contact that people have forgotten the art of actually talking with our mouths, rather than our fingers LOL Why is that? Is it because we are so used to technology that seems to take over our lives? Or is it because its just easier? I have friends who are in the same area as me (like 5min drive!), and I talk to them more online than I ever see them in person.
Maybe I should just pull my fingers off of the keyboard and actually suggest meeting in person. Yes, now there's an idea, now if only I could get over some of the hurdles that I seem to have placed on myself, it might actually happen LOL My biggest problem is wondering if they just want to be by themselves, and that is why they stick to the internet. I swear, its crazy times in my head LOL
I did have some adult time the other day and it was so nice! I went to a scrapbooking demo at a friend's house (LOL another friend who I have spoken to more online than I have in person, and we are only about 10min drive, if that!). Then spent the rest of the day with another new friend, and had a great time. I think that's why i'm craving it now. I had a taste the other day, and now I want more LMAO!! That always happens when I get together with friends, because it just doesn't happen often enough anymore.
Yesterday I even had the brief moment of wondering if I should go back to work! At least then I would have that outlet of talking to people. Only problem is, childcare costs would make it not worth doing. And i'd miss my babies, and oh dear LOL vicious cycle isn't it?
Well, this is still not getting us out of the house! Off to get organised :)
My brain is going to mush. It just doesn't get used in the way that it used to, and i'm starting to wonder if i'm every going to use it properly again LOL The big boys are happily playing, the little boy is currently swinging his way into the land of nod, and i'm on here trying to decide what on earth to do with this beautiful day.
I think my biggest problem right now is the lack of adult conversation. Now don't get me wrong, I love being online and talking to my friends on here, but I am craving the act of talking in person. These days I think we all rely on the internet so much for our social contact that people have forgotten the art of actually talking with our mouths, rather than our fingers LOL Why is that? Is it because we are so used to technology that seems to take over our lives? Or is it because its just easier? I have friends who are in the same area as me (like 5min drive!), and I talk to them more online than I ever see them in person.
Maybe I should just pull my fingers off of the keyboard and actually suggest meeting in person. Yes, now there's an idea, now if only I could get over some of the hurdles that I seem to have placed on myself, it might actually happen LOL My biggest problem is wondering if they just want to be by themselves, and that is why they stick to the internet. I swear, its crazy times in my head LOL
I did have some adult time the other day and it was so nice! I went to a scrapbooking demo at a friend's house (LOL another friend who I have spoken to more online than I have in person, and we are only about 10min drive, if that!). Then spent the rest of the day with another new friend, and had a great time. I think that's why i'm craving it now. I had a taste the other day, and now I want more LMAO!! That always happens when I get together with friends, because it just doesn't happen often enough anymore.
Yesterday I even had the brief moment of wondering if I should go back to work! At least then I would have that outlet of talking to people. Only problem is, childcare costs would make it not worth doing. And i'd miss my babies, and oh dear LOL vicious cycle isn't it?
Well, this is still not getting us out of the house! Off to get organised :)
Thursday, October 23, 2008
The week so far...
Well what a week! Monday saw us at the Dr's with Master H and a nasty double ear infection *sighs* Two months now we have been dealing with his ears being infected and being on anti-biotics and as soon as they start to clear, bam they are bad again! But he is a great little trooper and the only way I knew he was bad was the really high temps!
Tuesday saw us at the hospital with Mr B having his gallbladder removal surgery. After several stressed out hours for me (he was oblivious under the anestheatic LOL), my man was finally wheeled back to the ward and had done brilliantly.
Wednesday, great day cause 'Daddy comes home!' Yes, it was the boys catchcry for the morning before Master L and Master H headed off to kindy. Master P and I then went and picked him up and it was great to see him doing so well.
I'm a terrible worrywort, especially when it comes to those who I love the most in this world. So to have him in pain and going through that was a very anxious time for me. But he did great, and deep down I knew he would. Hey, he isn't getting away from me that easily LOL
That brings us to today. What a whacked out crazy day it has been. To start off with, the weather! Its nearly the end of October and today I wore a big jumper for most of the day. Sure ok, not weird to some, but yesterday it was hot enough for me to be wearing a sleeveless shirt and still be warm. Next, it would seem that with this strange old weather day, the kids decide to go crazy. Before I could even get the sleep haze off my face, Master P had spiked a 39.9 degree temperature, Master L and Master H had a massive fight landing them both into time out (and in tears!) and me feeling like i'd been hit by a truck with a massive headache. Oh the joys! Got to LOVE days like these LOL
We have managed to turn it around though. After several bouts of screaming from Master P (lets not mention they were over an hour in length each time! Oi my ears!) he seems to have calmed down. We have only had one lot of fighting tonight, resulting in a bite (OMG when did my children learn that trick??) and Master H landing himself in bed straight after that effort. And to top it off, The Wiggles have done their job and Master L is now asleep on the lounge.
Blissful peace has descended on our house! Lets hope that it stays that way tonight, cause boy oh boy, we all need the peace, quiet and sleep.
I am also hoping that this is the LAST week that we have like this again. Onto much brighter times in our lives thank you :)
Tuesday saw us at the hospital with Mr B having his gallbladder removal surgery. After several stressed out hours for me (he was oblivious under the anestheatic LOL), my man was finally wheeled back to the ward and had done brilliantly.
Wednesday, great day cause 'Daddy comes home!' Yes, it was the boys catchcry for the morning before Master L and Master H headed off to kindy. Master P and I then went and picked him up and it was great to see him doing so well.
I'm a terrible worrywort, especially when it comes to those who I love the most in this world. So to have him in pain and going through that was a very anxious time for me. But he did great, and deep down I knew he would. Hey, he isn't getting away from me that easily LOL
That brings us to today. What a whacked out crazy day it has been. To start off with, the weather! Its nearly the end of October and today I wore a big jumper for most of the day. Sure ok, not weird to some, but yesterday it was hot enough for me to be wearing a sleeveless shirt and still be warm. Next, it would seem that with this strange old weather day, the kids decide to go crazy. Before I could even get the sleep haze off my face, Master P had spiked a 39.9 degree temperature, Master L and Master H had a massive fight landing them both into time out (and in tears!) and me feeling like i'd been hit by a truck with a massive headache. Oh the joys! Got to LOVE days like these LOL
We have managed to turn it around though. After several bouts of screaming from Master P (lets not mention they were over an hour in length each time! Oi my ears!) he seems to have calmed down. We have only had one lot of fighting tonight, resulting in a bite (OMG when did my children learn that trick??) and Master H landing himself in bed straight after that effort. And to top it off, The Wiggles have done their job and Master L is now asleep on the lounge.
Blissful peace has descended on our house! Lets hope that it stays that way tonight, cause boy oh boy, we all need the peace, quiet and sleep.
I am also hoping that this is the LAST week that we have like this again. Onto much brighter times in our lives thank you :)
Monday, October 20, 2008
End of the day thoughts
Wow, 2 posts in one day. Wonder how many times that will happen.
I should be in bed. Its currently 11:30pm, and tomorrow is going to be an interesting day that i'm not exactly sure I want to actually start. Why? Well that would be because Mr B is having surgery. He is having his gallbladder removed after a very nasty attack last Thursday which landed him in hospital for 2 nights.
Now we have been here before, except the roles were reversed. It has always been me who is in the hospital bed, on the operating table, going through the nasty stuff. But now it is his turn and I don't like it. I so wish he didn't have to go through any of this, the pain, the surgery, the recovery. But I also have to remember there is nothing that I can do to stop it from happening.
You know what, its not easy being the person in the lucky seat (or should that be bed?), but I am now getting to feel what he has gone through so many times now being in the visitor's chair.
The boys, well I don't think they quite realise yet that Daddy is going back to hospital tomorrow. None of them copped particularly well for the 2 night he was in before, so it will be very interesting tomorrow night to see how they go.
Good luck to my sweet Mr B!
I should be in bed. Its currently 11:30pm, and tomorrow is going to be an interesting day that i'm not exactly sure I want to actually start. Why? Well that would be because Mr B is having surgery. He is having his gallbladder removed after a very nasty attack last Thursday which landed him in hospital for 2 nights.
Now we have been here before, except the roles were reversed. It has always been me who is in the hospital bed, on the operating table, going through the nasty stuff. But now it is his turn and I don't like it. I so wish he didn't have to go through any of this, the pain, the surgery, the recovery. But I also have to remember there is nothing that I can do to stop it from happening.
You know what, its not easy being the person in the lucky seat (or should that be bed?), but I am now getting to feel what he has gone through so many times now being in the visitor's chair.
The boys, well I don't think they quite realise yet that Daddy is going back to hospital tomorrow. None of them copped particularly well for the 2 night he was in before, so it will be very interesting tomorrow night to see how they go.
Good luck to my sweet Mr B!
It's Time!
I've been loving reading other people's blogs and have finally succumbed to having my own. I did have one for a little while, when pregnant with #3, but it fell by the wayside just like most things when you get home from having a new baby. So its time to attempt this again.
So, what should be it the first post? Something riveting and exciting enough to get people to read? A general 'who am I?' post? Ok, that sounds good.
I am me! Mandi to be exact. Proud wife of Mr B, loving mother to 3 gorgeous little boys, Master L - 4yrs, Master H - 2yrs and baby Master P - 11mths. Yes, 3 boys, and yes I do love it! They also keep me busy, but I would definitely not have it any other way (ok, so maybe another little person to join us, that would be great too!). I also have a step-daughter, who is 15yrs old Miss J, who is a lovely young lady and someone that I hope we can all get to know more of in the future.
What am I going to do with this blog? Well, I think its going to be one of those outlets for me to be able to get things out of my head. Plus its also a great way to write about whats going on around here, especially so I don't forget important things!
If you have gotten this far, welcome! I hope if anyone actually reads this, that i'm not going to bore you all to the point where you run off screaming LOL but hey I can't make any promises.
So, what should be it the first post? Something riveting and exciting enough to get people to read? A general 'who am I?' post? Ok, that sounds good.
I am me! Mandi to be exact. Proud wife of Mr B, loving mother to 3 gorgeous little boys, Master L - 4yrs, Master H - 2yrs and baby Master P - 11mths. Yes, 3 boys, and yes I do love it! They also keep me busy, but I would definitely not have it any other way (ok, so maybe another little person to join us, that would be great too!). I also have a step-daughter, who is 15yrs old Miss J, who is a lovely young lady and someone that I hope we can all get to know more of in the future.
What am I going to do with this blog? Well, I think its going to be one of those outlets for me to be able to get things out of my head. Plus its also a great way to write about whats going on around here, especially so I don't forget important things!
If you have gotten this far, welcome! I hope if anyone actually reads this, that i'm not going to bore you all to the point where you run off screaming LOL but hey I can't make any promises.
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